9. So tired of fighting..
9:13 p.m. & Wednesday, May. 17, 2006


Mother went to hit me while I was driving the car this afternoon. I was following the Navigation System, and didn�t go the road she usually went. She started screaming at me saying that I was an airhead, how useless I was and that I shouldn�t rely on this �stupid machine�. I flinched when she moved in that familiar way towards my face.

She kept yelling at me afterwards saying that I was worthless, inept and somehow pathetic and I�d no longer be allowed the privilege to drive. I was forced to stop in the middle of the road on the highway so she could take over�

I�m too drained to write anything else tonight.. she�s killing me though. Every day my will to survive decreases. I don�t want to wage war with it anymore. �I�m so tired of fighting.


I want to remember What takes a lifetime to forget